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Thursday, 7 June 2012

She's smile but inside her smile alot of pain that she would never show it.

Hai blogist .Lama dah Sally tak updated blog .Well kinda im busy with twitter and im addicted .Hehehe .Yeah since its been long time im not tell my story, today i will share about my feelin .As you know , blog is the place that i can express my feelin and i hope all of you enjoy but if someone fell annoyed just get out from my page Hmm , where i must begin? .Okay firstly, i like this guy for a long long time .Well , dia lah laki pertama yang Sally suka sebelum Sally suka dekat Lemon and Timmy laki yang Sally pernah cita kat torang .Korang lupe erkk? .Hewwhew .Okay , the guy that i mean is Saiful Azlan also known as Zse Lan .Dia mix malay chinese .As you know sally memang suka sangat sangat dekat lakie chinese or muka ala2 chinese  .I dont know why i like chinese guys .Maybe kawan kawan Sally banyak org cina sbb ya lah suka ngn budak cina Tehehe .Okay , mok tauk x , im start liking him since my age 14 form two lah and now im 16 .Sally still suka nya wlaupun dlm dua tahun ya dah brapa banyak girlfriend nya :"( .Dalam dua tahun ya , banyak lah dugaan yang Sally tempuhi , ceeewahh . Antaranya ,Sally terasa hati and sakit hati bila tengok nya dengan GF atau dgn perempuan lain .Hmm , when im tellin my feelin with my cuzzy about someone i like , directly all they says "go ahead just tell him lorr" .Aigoo ~~ so here is the problem .I wonder what i suppose to do? .Honestly , Sally nie memang lah memang seorang yang pemalu  .Sally xpandey mok cakap face 2 face ngn org ya cakap yang sally suka kat nya .Ya kes pertama .Yang kedua , Im a girl .Sally masih ada maruah dan harga diri .For me , when a girl tell a boy that she likes him or she wanna him to be her boyfriend ,nampak mcm perempuan ya xda maruah jak .Spatutnya , lakie yg ajak kapel bkn prmpuan ya baruk gentle men nma nya kan .Mun prempuan dolok yg ajak nmpak mcm xda harga diri jak ishh .Okayy , I like him so freaking much .I dont know how to express my feelin about him .The reason why im not tellin him the truth that i like him .Hmm , sometimes sally terfikir juak bodoh nya aku xckap jak yag aku suka nya ,ehh ney boleh aku prempuan aku ada harga diri .Yang sebetulnya kenak sally xpadah jak sally suka kt nya sebab sally sedar sapa dirik sally sebelum nya pdh cermin dolok dirik  ya .Sally still rasa sally bukan taste prempuan nok nya suka :"( .Im a bit dissapointed .Mungkin nya lebih suka prempuan yg lebih cantik.Mungkin mn nya pilih gerek pn prempuan yg setaraf ngn nya .Hidup sally xsekaya mcm org lain .Sally orang yg sederhana jak ..Zse Lan xtauk yg sally suka nya but allah know everything .Let be Allah knows everything .Sometimes i have to faces all this pain by myself .Bila sally tauk yg zse lan bncik ngn sally , i feel so fucking down , down and down .Sally tauk sally penah polh salah cause anok nya lm fb maybe this serve me right .Honestly , masa ya sally marah alu2 bila tauk zse lan ada gerek baru .Sally marah cause sally terfikir 'apahal setiap lakie yg aku suka, aku xdapat tp orang lain yang dapat?! ,sama mcm sebelom tok aku suka kt Lemon tp org lain yg dapat , aku suka kt Timmy org  lain yg dapat , aku suka kt zse lan org lain yg dpt , apahal ,APAHALL!!! .So , that why lah sally polh status lm fb yg polh zse lan mrah and terus remove sally dari friendlist . :"( .That night my tears cant stop when thinking about him have a new GF .:"( .Masa nya gerek ngn shota dolok ,sally kecewa pasya nya gerek ngn nisa , sally kecewa then nya gerek ngn mbiak mukah sally teramat2 kecewa and sedih .Bulak lah mun sally pdh sally xsedih .Banyak kalie dah sally kecewa tp sally still suka nya .Mungkin sally terlampau setia .Makin sally mok lupak nya mkin ya sally rasa erhhh ... :"(( .Bila sally tauk zse lan bncik ngn sally , then i realise yang sally xkan penah dpt nya sampey bila2 .Sally just dpt tengok mukanya jak and trying to give him smile but i know he won't smile back at me mcm dkt pantai riya .If i give another chance , sally mok mintak maaf ngn nya .Sally xmok ada musuh and sally xmok org bncik kt sally .Okay well , actually he's first guy who makes me cry every night , he's first guy who im thinking about when im bored , and and he's first guy who shine all my single day and he's really mean to me .Nothing more word can describe hows my feeling toward him .Every single night sebelom sally tido this question appears in my mind "Should I move on ? But my heart still wanna holding . Cause He the ONE . .My friends told me that im afraid of love and i said No .Im not afraid of love but im afraid of nothing love being back .Just like how every boys that i like ,For example i love zse lan but i got nothing love being back .Okay thats all for today .I hope all of you enjoy reading about my feelin .Kinda , im freaking tired bcoz helping my mother gardening .Bye.
Oh yaa , btw i hope all of you enjoy listening to this music .Can you smile by Infinite .Actually , this is my favourite song because the lyric was so meaningful and same just like my story ,You can romanized it into english subtittle .so ,i hope you like it .BUBBYE :)))

                                                                                                     Sincerely Writer, 

She's smile but inside her smile alot of pain that she would never show it

Wednesday, 25 January 2012


Hello my prettiest ,cuttiest ,hansome ,charming boys and girls .How are u today? Been up to much .Behehe . Okay , today i wanna share somethin about my feeling .Falling in love is a nice feeling .It is entirely an emotional matter and a majority of love arises almost spontaneously .Falling in love can occur at any time and in any place .But the most important part you have to fall in love with the same person again and again because this is the secret of marriage .So , well i dont like hiding , i do like to keep certain things to myself . kinda im fall in love with someone .You want to know who is it? .Zse Lan .Hmm i guess some of you recognize this guy isn't it? .Yea , actually i like him .I knew him from facebook .But unfortunetly , he never give me some inbox or chat .We never greet each other .very bad for me .Im not going to be arrogant .Im just waiting for him to greet me first . honestly i like when  a guy first chat or inbox with me .I feel akward when im start chat or inbox with somebody .Besides , im a shy shy girl ='.'= .Behehe .I just want a guy to be gentle bah .Normal lah mn lakie yang mulakan dolok kan? .Beheheh  .Okay , when i told to my friends , that i likeZse Lan they say i have to get over him because he's hot guy ,popular ,attractive .I know he's hot , i know he's popular ,i know he's attractive , i know i have no chance and i know he doesn't care .But i keep hoping .I cant get over him .Because kindaly , im in love . :) .Honestly , i've never have a boyfriend in my life .When a men ask me do i have a boyfriend and i say NO , they will say im LIAR .lol . Its such as waste lah mun sally mok bulak ngn torang .But the truth , i dont have a boyfriend lah stupid .I dont like people to say im LIAR if said a truthly things .Please lah . Memang sally pernah fall in love ngn sapa2 sebelum tok tapi xpernah lah bergerek coz all of them just give me a shit .Yeahh , semua nya xberbalas ,yerr ~ Behehe .Well , when a love doesn't get return , i feel so dissapointing and feel so down . I just want to find someone who deserve my heart , but not someone who play with it .Because i want my first love will be my first day with my boyfriend and we having a nice moments with .But yeah ,  i wonder who will be my first men? .If i want to looking a boyfriend , i want him taller than me so he can embrace my shoulder , caring , loving , intelligent , hansome , hardworking and older between on year because they more mature mcm zse lan .Gehehe :) .Okay , actually the worst feeling in the world is being hurt by someone we love .So , i dont want someone to hurt me because that is the worst feelin ever! .Okay , talking about a worst feeling .Actually , im kind so dissapointing when someone talk rubbish about me .Hey girl ,Is there anything problem if im not wear a headscarf? .Im not wear a tudung DOESNT MEAN IM BAD :'( .Im still not ready to wear actually .Because i still wanna enjoy my life .I like fashion , i like style and i like to colour my hair .So ,please lah .stop being envious person .Aku xkaco idup , koe iboh kaco idup .get it bitch?. Oh ya , maybe all of you wonder and keep asking why me shouldn't straight the point say i like zse lan? .Hmm , haha honestly im shy .Im not afraid , im just afraid nothing love being back .Besides , i have a pride so i have to care my pride as a girl .Because my pride and my dignity are the important things i have to care really really nicely .Sebab , dari maruah lah orang akan menilai kita perempuan mcm ney kan? .Behehe .My prinsip just a simple . 1) Even i want that person so badly , but i have to keep my mouth shut and i believe 1day he will know that i like him coz still wanna care my pride , 2) walaupun org menilai sally dari segi pemakaian contoh sally xpakey tudung or my style mcm org korean*org padah lah* but i still have a pride .What i mean i still have a virgin coz my prinsip senang jak only my the only one husband can touch my body .Walaupun , orang fikir sally tok bad girl coz cidak menilai dari luaran jak , actually they were wrong .Dont judge books by its cover .Luaran , macam jahat , buruk BUT dalam Bersih , Suci , Baik , Elok .Okay? .Well , actually im a crazy too , chubby but not fat behehe , hardworking , loving , caring and so on lah .haha .yerr ~ puji dirik sendirik .Behehe .Im kidding .Kehehe . ;D . Okay so here , i just wanna say that i like someone just now andddd i hope one day he will know that i like him ehh .God willing me .And i hope lah org yang sally suka skarang tok xmcm laki2 sebelum tok yang sally suka .Because all of them just give me a bullshit nothing love being back .I hope zse lan is a nice person .But i dont want to force him to like me , if he doens't like me back .It okay .Because im happy with myself and im fine .Maybe , im not richest likes others but i want rich with perempuan yg bermaruah and greatest behaviour .And yeah , this is who i am .So , i think stakat tok jak la .Update pnjang2 pun kelak boring org baca , tapi jangan lah boring view lah my blog selalu kehh :) .So , im done share my feeling and hell yeah , sally rasa lega coz dapat share ngn takorg . Even tonight im sad and feel so down but sharing my feeling with all of you can make me a little bit happy .Behehe .Bubbye , Annyeong :) Before i sleep , sally mok blagu lok '' i need you babe babe babe , i want you babe babe babe , stop stop breaking my heart i love you boy , stop stop breaking my heart i need you boy , i need you boy oh my love , i miss you boy , oh my boy - teentop (crazy)  .Gudnite . 
    Sincerely writer ,

Monday, 23 January 2012


Each day i am thankful for night that turned into morning , friends that turned to family , dreams that turned to reality and LIKES turned to INTO LOVE . Okay guyss , its been a long long time agos im not update my blog , isnt it? . Gonna miss you all the readers . Okay , as usual i will update my daily life and as you know blog is the only one places that i can express my feelin :) . Okay , Actually im having trouble looking for a right guy my lucky first love .Hell-yeah . Well , im just looking someone who can treat me nicely , can understand me , sincerely love me and LOVE WHO I AM . Hey guys , honestly i like someone but i cant mention his name .Only God knows who are him . I just wanna keep my secret and i hope one days he will knows that i like him so freaking much and he's the only one .Behehe :) . I definite , maybe all of the reader wonder and keep on asking 'why me shouldn't just tell him straight to the point that i like him , arent you'? .Yaa , if i have a chance i wanna be honest to tell him indirectly , BUT im a girl i have a pride so i just can keep my mouth SHUT to make sure my PRIDE and my harga diri sentiasa terjaga and clean .Behehe . So , im just waiting jak lah .Waiting him to says " KMK SUKA KTK " on his OWN voice .But , I dont know lah wether he like me or not .But , honestly i sincerely love him .He's the lucky guy for me .Many have called but choosen are Him .Behehe :) .But , unfortunetly  he likes someone who wear a TUDUNG . Im not wearing a tudung doesn't mean IM BAD . DONT JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER .I found some others girl who wear a tudung are MORE WILD than the girl who not wearing a tudung .P /S "Jangan pandang rendah dengan wanita yang tidak bertudung , kerana wanita yang bertudung belum tentu sempura dan belum tentu baiknya .Seperti yang anda tahu tiada siapa yang sempurna di dunia ini setiap kita sering melakukan kesalahan" . So here , who can get me only knows who i am .Even im not wear a tudung , but i still have a pride and harga diri .Im not smokers , im not kaki clubbing , im not kaki melepak and im not kaki lelaki (playrgirl) Aku xpernah disentuh oleh mana-mana lelaki .Im not ready to wear a tudung because i still wanna enjoy my life .I love fashionable and i love style .I love to colour my hair , i love to wear a stylish stlyle ( not seksi) and i dont like to wear a short pants . Walaupun rambutku dye tapi HATIku still BAIK .I will wear a tudung when my age turn to 23 when im success in my life.When my age on 20-22 my time to enjoy .Behehe :) Okay , i dont care what people going to says about me . You poret , you punya dosa lahh .Behehe :D . So ,people who really close to me will now how good behaviour i am what i mean my boyfriend (sooner) *god willing me * . Okay , i want to sleep liao . and i love you chinese guys .Behehe :) .

Forever Love ,

Saturday, 31 December 2011



My determination on year 2012 is study smart , changed my weakness , try to make something different and lose my weight :D . Dear 2012 , please make this year way better to me .Be the year that makes me believe i manage  to stand back up with the strength to face a LIFE *quotes from someone* .

Sunday, 18 December 2011

The Alpha Start with G and End with E .Guess who?

Hi , wow its been aged im not update my blog isnt it? .miss me? .HAHA LOL .Okay ,so tonight i got something to share about .Ermm , the alpha start with G and end with alpha E .Guess who? .Well , maybe all of you wonder and blurring with my blog tittle arent you? .HAHA .Actually , it was Greyson Chance .HEHE :) .As u know , he was my idol and inspiration .Im fallen love with the PIANIST like him .I keep on listening his song and hell yeah i never get bored .Yesterday , my cousin send me a picture of Greyson through email .
So , there was it .Actually i got so many pictures of greyson's but dont worry next time i will publish all of his picture yahh ^^ .I like this picture so freaking much .Look at his face and his smile .He look so adorable .Omg , i just cant imagine if he sit infront me , talk to me , touch my hand and kiss my cheek LOL , what wrong with me HAHA .Im just searching for a boy that just like he .Great smile , joker , cute and can play piano .When i watched him on youtube , sometimes i realize how great he is .I cant stand when i saw his face and his cute laugher .Omg , only God knows everything what i feel toward him .For the short i just can say " im your biggest fan , i follow you until you love me " part of the lyric on Paparazzi song .Kindaly , i just wanna meet him and talk to him or i wanna be his manager , personal assistant or anything else .Haha LOL i know it funny but hell yeah i was dreaming about him when i be his manager .I hope the dream will come true .God willing me .EHE .Actually , there are many things i like about him and why i wanna marry a guy like him , but i got so many to do .Well , i have to finish my work first then , tommorrow night i will continue write about him again okay .BUBBYE . Love GC :) 

Thursday, 1 December 2011


Halu guys , what up? .Err , i cant sleep cause i keep thinking about GREYSON CHANCE .U know what , last night i was dreaming about Greyson .I know it such as Funny , awkward of stupid stuff to share about but , as u know blog is the place where i can share my story life .
Okay , i keep on looking at this picture and wish that one day i meet this boy .God willing me .He look like ordinary person with his face like that .Cute isnt it? .I like when he speak .His voices , his laugher , his jokes sometimes made me melt too much .I never get bored watch him on youtube moreover , i keep on repeating his video several times and i dont know what wrong with me sometimes HAHA .I got jealous when i saw he meet his fans LOL seriously im JEALOUS >.< .Well , he is a joker actually .Every video he got funny moment and yeahh sometimes i cant stand with his jokes LOL omg , i just can say that i fallin love with him .I like when he laugh oh shit why he's so cute .DAMN .Kindaly , omg im out off my mind just now .Seriously im being CRAZY of him ==' .Really really really fallin love with him .I love his song Unfriend you .Well , he look so cute there and mature .The girl in the video clip was very lucky coz she can hold Greyson hand but yeahh thanks GOD coz there no scene kissing HAHA LOL .I watch one of his video on youtube when he sneezes .LOL he look so cute when he sneezes omg ! .I watch it 7 times coz haiss he look so cute bahh .Adoi adoi @_@ .Oh sorry Justin Bieber i cheated on u HAHA .Well , u have Selena Gomez then , nothing wrong if i cheated on u yaa .HAHA >.< .I belong to Greyson Chance .LOL >.<  .Okay the first thing i like about Greyson is he can play piano .Everybody knows he can play piano very well isnt it? .He look so great when he sang a song Paparazi by lady gaga piano version .Well , so freaking much great .Some of  the guy dont likes to play a piano .hmm , make me dissapointed of that .But it okay then :) .Sometimes when i play piano at my grandmother's house , i imagine Greyson besides me and sing me song waiting outside the lines BAHAHAH LOL likes i said sometimes im out of my mind so dont amazed when im doing out of your mind .HAHA >.< . I still like korean guys like Yoseop , Junhyung , Seungie , Sunggyu they still in my heart but my heart prefer more to Greyson Chance .Before i sleep i just keep on pray i hope i can meet guy like Greyson Chance .The face look similar and can play piano too .Mun xdpt Greyson Chance sebena2 xpa tapi sally mok org yang sama muka mcm Greyson .Tapi tapi tapi , ada kahh org sama mcm muka Greyson Chance ? LOL >.< .That why i keep on praying hope in this world someone like Greyson appear in my life coz God all almighty .With God anything possible .So , today talk-a-thon about Greyson Chance .Some people ask me , around this week why i talk about someone else why not the "guy" i always told about haha lol okay kindaly , im tired to tell story about the person who doenst need me .Im tired all of that .Im tired love nothing being back .Im tired of always being there for everyone and never havin anyone to be there for me .It seem he's happy just now so , let him happy .and i think twice , why must i thinking about someone who doesnt thinking bout me so , i realize how stupid am i .I just wanna start with new life forget all the past .I just wanna forget all the pain i face before .Everyday, i look back in and think how far i have came thats what make me keep on going . So , I learnt from my mistake to like someone who truly like me but not like someone who doesnt like me . In the end of the year it was DECEMBER , i just wanna have a great days with my family and my friends .I dont want all my days in DECEMBER full of tears , hopeless , dissapointing or sad i dont want to waste my times with all of JERK things like before .Yahh , i promise .Life must go on :) .Okay lahh , i want to sleep ehh .Tomorrow wake up early hangout with Greyson Chance we have a date .He said he wanna give me a couple of ring HAHAHHAHAH .kuat perasan lah you sallyy .AHAHAHAH . im just kidding lorr .Okeh BUBBYER 
Greyson Chance Everything You do Super Duper
Cute and I Cant Stand It :)

Wednesday, 30 November 2011


Wow its been aged im not update my blog isn't it? .Well , im busy helping my friend doing their assigment  about all korean guys we searching for someone who look alike korean guys laa err , also known as ulzang laa for short .Kindaly , it fun i saw many people were send their picture through email and yeahh sometimes i cant stand when i saw their super duper cute faces HAHA LOL >.< .
So tonight im not going to tell about ulzzang but yeayyy it DECEMBER .Happy December for all and Merry Christmas sooner ehee ~ .My new song for my blog 'back to december by taylor swift' such as sweet song and i love it .Yea , accidentally i miss my friend TIMMY .Well i still remember when he sang me this song on 16 December 2010 my Aunty's wedding dinner .OMG , u know what i little bit touched and little bit shame LOL >.< i just cant believed it when he say like that and yeahh seriously i feel that i wanna laugh loudly and and deep inside my heart keep on telling ''what wrong with himX10++'' .But yeah , for me that was best moment for me in my life .Well , first time in my life guy sing for me .Im glad when he said im a special girl ..i really glad it .I just looking someone to say me imma  special girl .Always asking to myself am i a special girl? *keep on repeating it while looking at the mirror* and yeahh I GOT IT ! .And honestly i LOVE him as my friends .no more than that .I just wanna have a long lasting relationship with him not as a boyfriend but as a BESTFRIEND .*kalau jodoh takkan kemana , am i right?* .Yeahh that was truly right .We just can plan and GOD will determine all the things .Remember my word yaa , dont afraid , sadness or hopeless if we cant get who we want just remember that god is almighthy .I believe that one day we will meet our true love and ready to be bride/bridegroom and that call as marriage partner by God .No need to regret when we lost our relationship .Sometimes , because of love people can do anything out of mind and because of love people willing to kill them self .Haiss ~ .Sometimes i wonder what wrong with people just now .We have a brain to think but why still doing such as stupid things and out of mind .haiss haiss ==' .and yeaa i miss my friends alot especially timmy .What were he doing ohh? .Kinda , i miss him so freaking much .I miss his cute laughing .Sound like bicyle handbreak .HAHA LOL .I hope Timmy fine there .Just wait for him comeback from KL . Okay then .Its okay when u arrive at bintulu then i will sing u back to december HAHA >.< So guys , hope all of you enjoy the song and have a great day on DECEMBER yahh .Bubbye :)